haven't visited the dirty town since i last saw ronnie and mike
haven't seen my mum's side of the family since i was 9
and i wonder sometimes did cousin jack make use of that law degree
the one he got from cambridge he's the favourite and at 9 i knew it wasn't me
his dad was the headmaster of a school and i was terrified of him
all of that anxiety ballooned and i can't shake the fucking thing
and i know
you know
true love
it will find you in the end
but daniel
he knows
things in a way i can't comprehend
moved here 3 years ago with a lover i don’t talk to anymore
oh and it wasn’t easy but i dragged myself up off the bathroom floor
and i really hope he’s stopped that drinking
i don’t even know what i was thinking with him
a little self respect would go a long way if you had enough to give
i can see our old flat from the window of the place I used to work
watch the light come on and i'm a poor excuse for a boyfriend’s extrovert, again
i feel like i felt back then
i don’t wanna feel again
i can never heal from him
couldn’t let me have one thing
could you write my eulogy i'm finding it exhausting to exist
again
everyone who loves me wants to die I think sometimes i might be cursed
try my best to fix them but I think most of the time i make it worse
i don’t think i can do this again
can’t see a thing behind her eyes
first my mother then my ex, my greatest friend, i put the curse on you this time